Anybody know what I'm doing here? Saying goodbye ^_^ I'm done here nice having a blog. But I'm bored with it. So. BYE

Last time
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Due to email notification

Well hello there. I haven't talked on here in a while now have I? As you can see I've broken my habit of using the "..." thing. Whatever it's called. I saw that a girl by the name of miss bleeding stitches commented saying I was interesting. Well. I have to say I am so I don't sound conceited (but it's true. I am interesting sometimes) so I just wanted to say hello to her. And welcome. And give everyone a hug *hug* and then. Leave abruptly..............................BYE

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Motivation to post.

I have none. Bye.

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Uh. Hi?

Yea. I havent posted in a while. Ive been kinda depressed recently. Dunno why I just am. Just wanted to say hi. Thats all I havE to say. Bye.

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Didja miss me?

I was at camp last week and I leave for fine arts camp on wed. Soooooo...yea. I Get to bring my bass to camp with me so that makes me happy...but that's about all i have...Exept that it is BLOODY HOT out and I hate it...I can't wait foe the snow...That's all...bye

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Aaaaaaahhh...life is

Good...you cared enough to wonder what life was...admit it...you expected me to say something completely random like camel of sammich...but no. I said something good...I noticed I hadn't posted in a while so I decided to tell you all that I love you all...Exept osumone...whoever you are...imma be blunt about it...you scare me...and I can't love someone Im afraid of...but everyone else I love like a brother/sister/well you know...I'm a teen to!/anything not mentioned before. So I don't know what else to say Exept that Im technically an 8th grader now and I'm really excited cuz 8th graders get to go to Washington dc for the field trip...FOR A WEEK! and I'm excited to go across the street to the high school in 9th grade...aaaaaand...I have something for everyone to talk about in the comments...my brothers friend..."Bill" we shall call him said to me that it's abnormal and unhealthy to listen to music on a regular everyday basis...so I googled it and found that listening to a song you like increases the blood flow in your body and makes your heart work less...so it actually is healthy. Then he went so far as to say that music is a waste of money, time, and memory on your iPod...and you know what I have to say? Absolutely nothing. Because your the one who is depriving yourself and your body of proper exercise and good music. You fatty...get of the couch and finally learn to ride a bike, your 13...

Confusion

So. This is going to be a serious post. I know its different but I just need to do it. The usual posts will resume when I stop feeling wierd. So I've been trying to not put myself down for the last two days or something. Yea, I know cami. Such a good thing to do for yourself. No. It's clearly NOT good for me. Because it's become so natural for me to say "I'm stupid" or other "put downs" about myself that it only hurts when I do something wrong. But my no-self-hating thing has failed. And I feel worse about little things than I should. So, those who know me, your gonna have to just get used to me putting myself down. Because I can't stop it without wanting to sit in a corner and cry and beat myself up about little things that happened a long time ago when I stop not hating myself. (remember the flashbacks? They were just a really Long involuntary beating up) Usually, I just beat myself up for doing something wrong. But today when my "self hatey" side broke through. I was hating myself because I had failed. Then I started telling lies about myself. And eventually beat myself up for doing absolutely nothing. I just did it. No reason. I didn't like it so I'm not emo. And I'm confused why! It's just. NOTHING! I'm telling lies about myself for no reason at all! And I hate it! So much that I hate myself for not controlling it! *pauses* EUREAKA! I've got it! I know why Im doing this! I won't tell you and no it's not depression (the kind they advertise about on tv for) but now I can stop because I know the reason and because the reason is stupid I can stop! YAY! *hugs for everyone* yay yay yay yay yay yay yay!!!! Regular posts will resume tomorrow or on my next post!(if all goes well) I want to thank Eleanor especially because she talked to me tonight and made me feel a bit better and if I was as sad as earlier I wouldn't be able to figure it out!! THANK YOU A BILLION TRILLION TIMES!

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My bass's twin

This is my bass's look-alike because I don't know how to upload pictures from my camera to the webernet...so if you know how please tell me and I will put out a pic of my actuall bass...but for now this is its twin...oh by the way...I already gave you your daily inspiration so none in this post...

Brain explosion

Yes...that's why I haven't posted...no...actually I haven't posted because I haven't had much to post about...other than yesterday my iPod screen broke so now Im going on my 5TH FREAKING ONE!! technology has it in for me...if technology was a cereal killer I'd be at the top of the list...comparing apple iPods hatred of me to the worlds hate of rebecca black...apple hates me more...which brings me to another thing I'd like to say which is REBECCA BLACK IS OFF YOUTUBE!!! *fireworks go off in the background while everyone who's ears have been soiled by her cheer* yes...she's finally gone! Only the parodys remain (my favorite being the brock's dub one) what happened was basically she and the recording company that made her music video were fighting over the rights to the song or something and Rebecca decided to put the music video onto YouTube with her own account...and then something happened that I havent heard about yet but all of the official videos were wiped from YouTube...and because of the world finally getting past Friday and moving onto saturday (I can name the days of the week to) my family is going to san Antonio for the national wild birds unlimited convention...it's a yearly thing where all the approved vendors and franchise owners gather for a week to look at new merchandise to put into the stores...but my brother and I have to stay in the hotel...I'll
Probably find a spot that has wifi and sit there all day telling you guys about the hotel and whatever...I'll talk to my friends (who I'll miss alot!) I have a bass lesson tonight...and I found out why my airsoft gun doesn't work...but you don't care...it's now just a show gun...and the fourth of July I quickly approaching and my dad and I are gonna go out and buy some mortars and 500 gram cakes...and well put on a little show...so if you know me and your in town You can come over and Watch...and of course therell be little stuff as well as the big shots...I finally found my old yugioh cards and made up a deck just because I was bored...so yea...that's all I have Exept the meaning of the title and te days inspiration so the meaning of the title is- I was Playinng video games in exess and by exess I mean 20 hours in two days...and when I stopped(thank you beatlechick for easing my boredom) my brain felt like it had exploded and I had a terrible headache...so yea...inspiration time!

Today's inspiration-"Imagination is more important than knowledge." by Albert Einstein

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Nothing

For two days...I have done nothing but finish infamous so I can get the new one "infamous 2" which I demoed and it was fantastic...and I went to see "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat" I just got home...oh yea...and I had to clean peanut butter off my basketball hoop (don't ask)...but that's it!

Today's inspiration-Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.

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Bass Guitar+Ewok=Today

Yes...I got my bass guitar today...completely true...my grandpa took me for one in Chicago while I was there today...so...theres my day...I tried to teach myself bass...if you know me...you have to come over to see it...

Today's inspiration-Yesterday's the past, tomorrow's the future, but today is a gift. That's why it's called the present.

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compuer post!!!!!

so im not gonna post about my day or anything but im uploading some pics...so here they are...

ISNT SHE CUTE?!?!?!?!?

This is one of my other selves, his name is oz vassalius from pandora hears

Answer this in the comments...

*wishing it was mine*

ISNT THIS TRUE...girls,dont lie...

just for you Elanor...

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NO!

I didn't post by the end of Sunday...now it's 12:15 am on Monday...leave it to me to be up this late (>^^)>...I've actually been up till 2 every night this past week...and wake up at 12...SHORT PPEOPLE NEED SLEEP TO! lol...no I'm just kidding...I'm slowly working my way to being nocturnal for a few days...just to see what it's like...I'm kidding my parents wouldn't let me...and what would I do all night anywase? Everyone is asleep...Exept of course gamers who have NO LIFE...so...my-19 min. Ago day was pretty Suckish...I've been waiting to go to my lake house now that the hot tub is fixed...*chuckles at inside joke*...but I basically ate cereal and rejoiced that I got my free playstation plus...don't ask that would take forever...just YouTube-PSN is down!...and you'll know what happened...and waited "like a puppy waiting for it's master to get home from work so he could go on a walk and chase cats" for my friends to text me when they could go biking...BUT that didn't work...I need exercise so I don't get fat...no...I'm not worried about that...I weigh 75 pounds...without anorexia nervosa...or whatever the second part is...soooo...that's my-27 minutes ago day...I'm going camping this weekend with scouts to an amusement park(I know NOTHING to do with scouts) actually it's a scout day where anybody wearing a BSA class A uniform gets if for like ten bucks and they get all this free stuff...no idea why...but who cares!?! FREE STUFF!!! and today I'm finding out about bass guitar lessons and getting a guitar...so...yea...

Yesterdays inspiration- America has an obesity problem, Kenya needs food. CANT WE FIND A MIDDLE GROUND? Can America live without all the extra big macs? Like Obama said-"Yes We Can"
(people of Kenya)-*screaming* YAY! 

Your Shortest Internet Friend,
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"Boss" arm cannon out of boredom

So today I got bored AGAIN...so I went all "buildy" and I got an old plastic helmet a plastic mask and some duct tape and made a cyborg mask...nerdy as it seems...it looks pretty cool...plus it was all I could think of...I'll build something else later this summer...but then while I was playing "super crazy wars" on my iPod I decided that a mask wasnt enough...so I made an arm cannon with seven barrels and spraypainted it gold...they look pretty friggin awesome when Theyre both together...so it seems a bit childish...don't think lesser of me because of it...we all have a seven year old left in us...sooo yea...that was pretty much my day...how was your first friday of summer? Why don't you post on your blog or tell me in the comments...I like seeing the comment counter gust pop up from 0-1 and so on...now for the saying of the day-"Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not so sure about the universe"- supposedly Albet E. But that's just supposedly...as alwase, I love you all...*hug*

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My terrible Suckish boring day...

I'm hating summer right now because my gosh darn $60 fancy full auto airsoft rifle got jammed and no longer works...I spent my day like this-
1:00- wake up
1:30-4- play medal of honor on ps3
4-6-try to fix airsoft gun that hates me
6:15-10:00-look for replacement guns...no luck buying one cuz parents wanted to "wait till it gies on sale" pph...not happening...it's the most popular in the store
10:15-rant about how terrible my day was because my friends weren't around...sadface
10:20-watch tv
2:15 am-go to bed

So that's what I'm gonna do every day now...no not the above chain of events...I'm gonna post about my day every day this summer...provided I have wifi cuz I'll be camping ALOT 26 days to be exact...I'll cross those bridges when I get there...OH I'm gonna add one thing at the end of all my posts from now on- a motivational thingumabob...something to make you want to go out and do something to better yourself or society...so here's today's- "don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon"
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Warning-stupidity X-ing

Ooook...I can exPlain...no I can't...yes I can...I got grounded from my iPod so...yea...ummm...dum dee Dum...OH YEA!!!! I was gonna write notes to everyone!!! Ok...here goes!!!

Cami- I love you, your awesome, can't wait to see your bangs on tuesday!!!

Osumone- I dont know who you are and am assuming your a guy...but I want you to know that I like you as a friend and you are awesome...

Jen- LOL RAINBOWS R SEXXXY!!! IMA DERP :P U IS AWESOME I LUVS Ü

Nai-feel better buddy, Love you like a brother I never met!

Popo-I know you don't read this but I want you to know...*dramatic pause*...You DID leave the stove on that one time...and I love you like my brother...you know...when he's not being a creeper...bad example...oh well you get the point...you don't even read this...

Gertrude/Elanor-I love you the most and your awesome and You need to know that the secret to the universe is-Paul McCartney...*hug*

Ms. Cha-Ching-your awesome I love you, PLEASE???? Can I have a hug???

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BOOM!!! didn't expect an indentation didja? Well...I only have one thing to say...well two...ok...one-I love you all
Another one!!! Two- I forgot...like I said...IMA DERP Ü

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Sorry All...

1-everyone...for not posting in so long. My life has been a bit crazy recently.

2-beatlechick...for being such a stupid guy all the time.

3-cami...for not understanding our math and taking up your classtime to help me.

4-my brother...for always putting him down.

5-my close friends...for having to live with me every day, I'm undeserving of you all. You guys are so nice to me.

So I'm clearly feeling bad about some stuff...especially the things for beatlechick and my close friends...it seems to be a heavy melancholy...I usually live in a light melancholy...but it's just worse all of a sudden...maybe it's because I suck at track, the nicest girl I ever met hates me and won't talk to me, and I'm stressed for the ECA because if I fail then I won't get my high School diploma and I'll be a looser(on second thought...the only thing that would change is I wouldn't get my diploma.) can someone email me or text me or whatever(just not comment) cuz I need someone to spill my guts to...that's all I have for now...so...yea...

DragonWHO?

Who needs d-force...they suck...i found MUCH better music...Please---look up the following songs on YouTube-
1) the good life by three days grace
2) whole worlds crazy by art of dying
3) sorry by art of dying
4) hero by skillet
5) life starts now by three days grace

Those are my top five favorite ROCK songs...the Beatles are in a different category...but #1-3 on this list are my TOP of the TOP favs...Sooo...yea...OH extra credit! If you look up all 5 songs plus this one coming up...I'll give you a cookie...so here's the extra song

6) country song by seether...
So there's the extra credit...I have a track meet today, and I got a new bike, and my iPod is fixed...as I said...fourth one in two years...Sooo...I gotta shower so I'm all good smelling so BYE!

Blog, track, iPod, craigslist...

I'll start with my iPod... I get the new one on Sunday...
My blog has been changed for the comment thing...beatlechick, you may now hyperventilate...just dont pass out...
We won our first track meet...it's a pity when your 7 th grade beat their 8th grade...I lost my race...sadface...
Im selling a ton of legos and a table with some stuff...so if anyone has $400 to toss around...check for the add in about three to five days...Bye!

MY list of ten things...shhhhhh!!!

Like the title said-shhhh!!! Don't tell...make others read the blog if they want to know...I'll try to keep them un-embarrassing...but I'll probably have one or two...*said like Mario* HERE WE GO!

1- I can't sleep without it being super dark.

2- Somewhere I have a soft side...dunno where but it's there...and BOY IS IT SOFT!! beatlechick knows what it's like firsthand...it's usually out when friends are down or I'm down...but more often when chatting late at night...

3- I absolutely CAN'T STAND people who hate on gays and lesbians...WHATS WRONG WITH IT HUH?

4- im a total freakin rockstar from mars...charlie sheen reference!!! WOO Two and a half men!

5- Deja-vu is a fairly often thing...mostly the things I have it from is from a sddenly remembered dream...I think my brain tells the future, months in advance

6- I sometimes wonder how I have friends that actually care about me...at least I think they do...

7- I haven't had ONE good flashback since they became regular...and it's starting to hurt

8- I cant think of any more that I can put on the internet because of their personalness...

9- I feel really bad for girls In middle and high school cuz MAN are they mean to each other!!! I wish they'd just punch each other and be done with it.

10- I believe life is really an uncureable disease that follows you everywhere, killing you slowly...the most painful parts of "aging" include but are not limited to-sickness, middle school, high school, Recession, war, other people dying, depression, GREAT depression, spiraling depression, any other form of depression, fear, broken bones, giving birth (women only), etc. There is infact one and only one cure of aging that cure being death. Death is a usually painful Thing, however it ends all other pain by ending life of the person being cured. Religious people believe that depending on your "karma" if you will... Be it good- you will go to heaven, be reincarnated, etc. Be it bad-you go to hell, endure eternal suffering, bla bla bla...
If heaven and hell existed-it wouldn't matter on your karma, you would Eventually be rebirthed or go to heaven
The REALITY-when you die, YOU DIE, some lucky people live on as ghosts causing mischief on the surface of the world. Otherwise-it's all black, time no longer exists, thoughts no longer exist, NOTHING exists, not even you...that's what I think death is like. But it's not possible to know...

Well...I gave you a list...and I REALLY hope you don't talk about the things that could be marked "embarrassing" and I ask you to leave your thoughts on any/ all of the things on the list so I know I'm appreciated...goodbye.